...today.....

I couldn't come up with a creative title for today's post. 

This morning, sprint/run session. 30-minutes. 

Early afternoon: 4 sets of hanging leg raises.

A walk about house, outside with the camera. 

Chatting/texting with friends.

Doing some art.

And also, examining the emotions behind embarrassment. Feeling embarrassed. Searching for patterns; examining the emotions and learning from them. This is moving towards attempts at freeing myself from a stifling relationship with self-doubt. I have a tendency to overthink my feelings. I read about "ruthless internal classification" and I'm gonna start practicing it. Part of my process to take full advantage of this time of self-isolation is to recalibrate, reinvent, and reshape goals...and usual internal habits. 

What usually motivates me to change? Oh, boy. Loss, does. Especially in the area of relationships. I hate that feeling of loss. Of feeling no control over....anything. I deal with it by taking action over areas I DO have control. Thats how I move forward. It can be by cutting my hair - shaving my head - throwing myself into my career/job - and yes, driving forward towards a competition. 

I've never formally thought though this before. Ever. In my life. I've always just done it. Now, I'm thinking through these moments. These bookmarked moments of my life. Its time to get "matter of fact" with who I am; which will lead to closing the gap between expectation and disappointment to the point it no longer exists. And I can just live a life of intention. Of purpose.

I intend on coming out the other side of this self-isolation a much improved version of myself.

A picture to close....

Words of the Day:

Extraordinary

Purpose

Recalibrate

Word of 2020:

Love