Another thing....
...don't listen to dating or relationship advice that tells you to play games. Like, to look busy to be more interesting. Just do the things you want to do.
Because you want to do these things. Not because of the possibility to pique someone's attention.
More importantly, tell people how you feel. You want to see someone? Spend time with them? Let them know. Spend time with the people you care about.
This industry can be crazy busy. Just crazy. It will consume you when you let it. And sometimes, you have to let it. But its a big reason I love what I do. I just fall into the work and that's all I focus on. Because I find joy in the work.
However, relationships are important. Its important to step outside of yourself and be with others. To experience their joy. Their ups and downs. To provide comfort for others. I had been setting this one person aside because I just didn't want to feel the pain anymore. But I also hadn't let them know how I felt.
The worse thing you can do to yourself is stop the feelings. To try to block them. As a creative the feelings - the emotions - are so involved in the work. Such a strong part of the work. And I tell ya, its been really tough to try to do this work while behaving like an unfeeling bot.
I had a good cry this morning and was a mess for a couple of hours. I stopped it because, you know, strong people don't show emotions. Which is utter bullshit. Strong people are all about being in tuned to their emotions. At one. And fully comfortable in showing it. Its okay to be vulnerable. To show vulnerability.
I'm a mess because I'm trying to be strong. And its back firing in so many ways. I need to get out more....well, lets rethink that. I need to GET IN MY HEAD and realize I deserve better. I deserve MORE. And get there.
Meanwhile. Tell people how you feel. *Eyes up. Heart open.* Remember that. That should be your mantra.
Words:
Authentic
Open
Courageous
Real
A word that I chose to be the focus of my 2020:
Love
Because you want to do these things. Not because of the possibility to pique someone's attention.
More importantly, tell people how you feel. You want to see someone? Spend time with them? Let them know. Spend time with the people you care about.
This industry can be crazy busy. Just crazy. It will consume you when you let it. And sometimes, you have to let it. But its a big reason I love what I do. I just fall into the work and that's all I focus on. Because I find joy in the work.
However, relationships are important. Its important to step outside of yourself and be with others. To experience their joy. Their ups and downs. To provide comfort for others. I had been setting this one person aside because I just didn't want to feel the pain anymore. But I also hadn't let them know how I felt.
The worse thing you can do to yourself is stop the feelings. To try to block them. As a creative the feelings - the emotions - are so involved in the work. Such a strong part of the work. And I tell ya, its been really tough to try to do this work while behaving like an unfeeling bot.
I had a good cry this morning and was a mess for a couple of hours. I stopped it because, you know, strong people don't show emotions. Which is utter bullshit. Strong people are all about being in tuned to their emotions. At one. And fully comfortable in showing it. Its okay to be vulnerable. To show vulnerability.
I'm a mess because I'm trying to be strong. And its back firing in so many ways. I need to get out more....well, lets rethink that. I need to GET IN MY HEAD and realize I deserve better. I deserve MORE. And get there.
Meanwhile. Tell people how you feel. *Eyes up. Heart open.* Remember that. That should be your mantra.
Words:
Authentic
Open
Courageous
Real
A word that I chose to be the focus of my 2020:
Love
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